Hi again everyone
Thank you much for your comments by email and in person, I am glad to think some of my posts are interesting and thought provoking enought to inspire reading!
Last week I wrote about the four roles or ways of being and how I need the warrior to help me:
*choose to be present
*show honour and respect
*set limits and boundaries
*be responsible and disciplined
*align words and actions
*employs judicious communication
*demonstrate right use of power and position
This week I have done just that but perhaps more for my own benefit than anyone else’s.
I am associating the warrior today with Steiner’s notion of the will, which is also found in the North American medicine wheel teachings. It relates also to the Greek word for mindfulness ‘metis’ which is the kind of inner active steadiness and balance you need when steering a ship at night in a storm, not that I would know too much about that!
I realise though that I have been steering myself through a little bit of darkness and bad weather lately … I picked up a book of the Indian mystic and philosopher Osho’s writings on mindfulness today and it is just the perfect book for the situation I find myself in. This often happens to me and I am sure it does to many of you as well.
Osho talks about the kind of inner growth or flowering that comes after a fair time practising mindfulness in which you finally wake up and become yourself, unafraid of others. He says that most of the time we are not really present at all, that we are obedient, that we make a Faustian deal to have an easy life but thereby sell our soul. As an activitist I was interested to read his view that ‘the more alive you are the more society will create trouble for you’.
Independence is not valued while we are alive… our society wants us to be automatic, efficient, productive, not more aware. Socrates had to be poisoned and killed, like so many others. Osho writes that truly alive, aware mindful, alert people have ‘escaped from the prison and whatsover you say you cannot persuade them to come back. They will not come into the prison; they have known the freedom of the open sky’.
Osho says that the whole effort of mindfulness mediation is to deautomatise us. He says that will make us less efficient at first and that in the beginning everything will be in a mess! Thank goodness, he says eventually we can be aware and efficient!
The flow comes eventually, once we become meditative as our whole way of being rather meditative this minute, not meditative the next.. when we experience consciousness as a continuum, like a river, flowing constantly, without obstacle My granddaughter demonstrated this to me me the other morning as again and again she scooped up the sand in the sandtray to let the water come ‘streaming streaming the water is streaming’ as she said over and over….
I took the time to be with her, fully present as she played. At the time I thought she was busy removing obstacles in her own path to bring about flow but I am wondering now as I write if she was also reminding me to clear some of my own obstacles!.
How did this stuckness happen after so much flow? I think the difficult work I have been doing has been catalytic and taken me to a deeper level but that I had begun to start identifying with the difficulties as myself instead of letting them flow through.
Being very busy- too busy- can bring this situation about, as we need time and space and yes perhaps some inefficiency at times to reconnnect with this inner awareness.
I think I may have been focusing too much on how many assignments I can ‘get through’ in a day, how many school visits, meetings etc…
I am grateful to my granddaughter for showing me the way last week, I am sure it has helped me in my decision to reduce my workload where I can, to know I have done as much as I am able and that it is time to come back to myself.
Osho’s book has also helped in this self-remembering process!
Love to hear from any of you of course, anytime in any form…